Camisole!

Dear Camisole,

Oh how I've come to love you! I never understood the desire to layer shirts. Why would anyone want to wear so many layers here in Texas? It's hot and sticky, humid and nasty sometimes. But in recent years, I've found a deep appreciation for all that you provide me.

You sit in my drawer waiting to be worn with all your sisters of different colors. I am not prejuidice in my choices. I don't stop at just one color or style, you all are unique and provide different aspects of comfort to me in various ways. Aside from providing that little bit of extra flare to my wardrobe, you help hold my stomach in place . You also lift up my boobs and put them in place . You are the perfect accessory to any top (and even pajama pants). You provide a smooth fit under any top and provide extra coverage, you stretch to any size but remain comfortable to wear.

Thank you for being there for me. You stick with me - no matter the circumstance you stay by my side, you hold on tight and you never let me fall. Thank you! You truly are a girl's best friend.

Sunny day :]

This whether is really getting annoying. I LOVE having sunny beautiful days don't get me wrong, BUT I was preparing my self for winter, and I had to put my winter stuff up again ... I'm so ready to get bundled up in my coat and drink hot chocolate. I want to start making homemade soups, and decorating the house for Christmas! ( I think that is my favorite part!) I'm just ready for coldness! ( I say that now) ...

But for now I am just going to soak up all the sun I can get, and enjoy this nice weather ....

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Speech.

So I'm sitting here working on my speech project at 10:30 .. Thats due tomorrow - and I have had 2 weeks to on this. I'm sorta mad at my self because I waited until the very last minute to work on it. So now everything is just throw together .. I must say it is at least pretty good! Now I just have to talk for 5 minutes about it, and make it presentable for my teacher! I have faith in my ability to make this speech amazing even if I only gave 50% .. So sad Breanne.. So Sad.

Got to go work on my speech. Wish me luck!

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still sick .. but I have CODIE!

So I got a puppy this weekend, and I lOVE him so much. I am still sick, but Codie is some how making it all better! (kinda) He is just loving on me, and following me around the house, and giving me kisses! I never really thought you could fall in love with something in 3 days, but he proved me wrong. I love him so much, and my life will never be the same!

He is SO cute. He loves playing with bouncing balls, and his own tail. He will sit there for 5 minutes just following his tail in a circle. DORK! .. ha!

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Thanks mom for letting me get a dog! I know I didn't really want him, but I'm glad you got him. I love him, and he is making me feel better!

sick..

I'm sitting here doing a breathing treatment, and feel like I could fall asleep at any given moment. I am so tired, and my body is ready for rest.

I have 2 ear infections, sinus infection, can't breath, and can't sleep.

This might be a LONG night. I really just want to crawl in bed, and never get up, ever. My face feels like at any moment it is going to explode..

I just want to be better, and feel good. I hate getting up and feeling like crap. This is just not a good time for me, I mean I guess NO time is good time, but I just don't want to be sick...

Is that toooo much to ask for???

shessh.

LOVE ..

Three Kinds of Love:

EROS love is sensual love. It asks: “WHAT CAN I GET OUT OF THIS?”

PHILEOS love is relational love. It asks: “WHAT CAN WE GET OUT OF THIS?”

AGAPE is unconditional love. It asks: “WHAT CAN YOU GET OUT OF THIS?”

EROS LOVES WHEN… the circumstances are right, when I am pleased, when I want to.

PHILEOS LOVES BECAUSE… you’re my brother, you’re my sister, or you’re my friend.

AGAPE LOVES IN SPITE OF… how you treat me, what you did to me, or how I feel at the moment.

Better love thinks about others more than self!

Better love makes the first move!

Better love takes risk!

Better love goes the last 10%!

I want to better love everyone in my life!

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perfume..

I don't understand perfume commercials. They have nothing to do with the perfume. The models in the commercials are almost always naked. Or they are running in the forest, or about to have sex on the bed.

I don't understand, and I'm sure they get paid lots of money to role around, and run, and have their hair blowing in the wind...

I think the point is to sell the body, not the 95 dollar perfume..

Speaking of 95 dollar perfume, why is perfume cost so dang much. I mean I pay how much for something that doesn't even stay on me all day, so I have to put it on twice.. Plus that means that I just ran out of it faster, and that means you buy another bottle faster.

Ah - See thats how they get you..

Tricky Tricky ... .

Row Row Row your boat!

I am absolutely in heaven right now! I LOVE this weather SO much. I know every one is complaining about it, and talking about how much they hate the rain, and blah blah blah. Not me! I am enjoying it!

I love seeing the grass growing incredibly tall, and the men freaking out about mowing because the ground is too wet to mow! The flowers are still blooming, and trying to get all it's flowers out before it gets to cold and they die.. I just like the sound of rain to be honest. I mean the streets flooding are a little irritating, but that is my only complaint.

I just did some rain boots, and then I will be completely satisfied! I think I'm going to get some after school as a matter of fact!

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Defensive Driving ..

Defensive Driving is SO long.. I have only been doing it now for like an hour, and I'm ready to quite. AH - and I did this comedy one, and it is SO NOT funny at all. Like it is just stupid.

UG. Why can't I just follow the rules. They are not really that hard. I mean just slow down Breanne, thats all you have to do. Then you would have nothing to complain about, and you wouldn't be waisting away your precious time on a stupid DD Course...

DUH. Breanne.

Army Wives

Tonight is the season final of Army Wives and I'm sitting here in tears.

I love this show, and I am so sad to see it end. This show has been my favorite show since season 1! Season 3 has been the best so far. So much drama, and love, and back stabbing, and ah SO many emotions. I know it's most likely not like the show in real life, but I would love to believe that. I would love to think tv is just like real life! Big hopes, right!

I could never be a army wife thats for sure. I could not stand for my husband to be away for so many months, and then on top of that for him to be fighting, and knowing that he may never return home. So incredibly hard. It's hard enough for my boyfriend to be away at college, much less fighting a war and being away. ...

Ah - off to finish the show.

Card Games

I'm sitting here playing a card game with a group of friends, and I'm really bad at this game.

It's called BS, and it is a game revolved around not telling the truth, and I giggle when I have to lie. So to say the least I am loosing really bad. I have over half the deck in my hands at the moment...

I have 2 friends sitting here reading over my shoulder. It's really hard to talk about anything important in life with 2 people watching you!

I really wish I loved games more, and then maybe I would try harder to win. I mean I'm just not one of those people who plays to win. I could care less if I win. I just want to play! The people who only play to win are SO not fun to be around. They are way to serious, and don't relax and have fun. Really whats the point of winning any way. I mean really. You get nothing in the long run for winning... NOTHING!

Well I have some butt to kick!

just kidding!

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Crazy Weekend!

This weekend is going to be fun! I'm really excited!

Friday night - I am helping one of my friends with her sisters Birthday party. We are starting it off at a game place place with bowling, and lazer tag, and games, and yuumy food! Then we are heading to her house, and we are havening a "makeover" for the girls! We are going to do their hair, and nails, and makeup. Then off to do glamor shots! Ah - I'm really excited!

Saturday - I have a test in math - that I'm going to kick butt on! Woop! :) - Go home and sleep! Then off to the comedy club with a group of friends!

Sunday - I am going with friends to get MY nails done!

BUSY!

But, I'm really excited!

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yeah!

Communication

Communication is a process by which information is exchanged between individuals through a common system of symbols, signs, or behavior

Is exchanged between two individuals.

Christmas!

hmm.

I can't wait for it to cold cuddle weather, with some hot chocolate! How amazing dose that sound! I love hot chocolate. To me it represents family time! Random I know. But my family is really close, and when winter gets here we are all stuck inside and my mom makes hot chocolate, and we all just hang out and talk! I love it so much!

I really want Christmas to be here. My favorite part is getting to set out the Christmas tree, and decorate the house! AH - it's going to be great!

I love could weather! IT means so MANY amazing things are about to happen!

Plus - I'm SO proud of my self. I have gotten almost all my Christmas present shopping down!

Way to go Breanne!

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Biggest Loser!

I am a biggest loser!

I have officially lost 80 pounds today. Yes I, Breanne Coe has lost 80 pounds! 80 pounds is about the size of my nephew! I have lost a pre-teen! How crazy is that. I am SO extremely proud of my self, and never would I have thought I would be in this situation right now.

I feel so empowered right now, to go out into the world, and scream at the top of my lungs to all the over weight children that you don't have to live life like that. ( A nice scream! A excited one! :) I want everyone around the world to understand that too loose weight you don't have to spend loads of money on pills, and all the diets out there that pull you in. You have to eat healthy, and exercise. That's the secret people!

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ha- way to go Breanne!

You are one HOT young lady!

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BUSY

I seem to be going non stop lately, and it has now caught up to me. I slept in today, which in its self is an amazing thing. I was one of those rare teenagers that never slept in. So sad I know. Any way back on track. I woke up, went to the store, and came home and slept. Got up (again) went to the book store. ( Side not again) I have now looked 3 days in a row trying to find this dang book, and it is NO where. ARG! Ok, so came and yet again went back to bed! Travis was coming over, so right when he got here I woke up! We had dinner with him, and just hung out. I sent him off, and then guess what?!? I yet again went to sleep .. Now I'm up .. again!

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The sad part is, I could really go back to sleep. No lie. I could. I think I might finish some coupon cutting, and then my big comfy bed is calling my name!

Goodnight!

Not blogging with the letter E ....

I’m finding this blog difficult to put in writing. Half of the vocabulary in my brain is on lock down! Blogging is fun, but difficult with a ridiculous policy such as omitting particular things. I don’t think I can lay down much of anything right now. My brain is starting to hurt from all this thinking going on. This is ridiculous. I want to say a lot and stuck on small things. Holy cow! I didn’t think this was so hard. I shall try…. But this is tough!

I’m a hard working gal. Been saving up for a trip I want to go on. I’m thinking of taking a trip to a local park - City Lights. It has many attractions I want to visit. Lots of lip-smacking food to try. I will stay ok if I were to gain a pound from City Lights. The food is godly. I want my family to join in on the fun too. My family would have a ball!

This was crazy hard. And I did it!

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Thank you, and on no account do I want to do this again!

Flu.

Everyone around me has the flu and I'm really thankful it has not hit me yet. I don't have the patience or time right now to be sick. I guess no one really has the time though to get sick. I need to go get my shot on Saturday, but I really don't want to get that either. What is the point of injecting someone with the flu, but yet there are still like 6 other flu's floating out there in this big old world for you to get. RIGHT?!? My mom is saying she is going to make me go, but I don't think I'm going to get it. I'm not scared of getting shot or anything like that, I just don't understand the point of getting one ..

hm.

Oh please lord let me stay healthy. Travis Rose is coming home this weekend, and I DO NOT want to be sick. ( Breanne's Body you can fight this, I have faith in you! Stay strong!)

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Addicted

I am addicted to reality TV. I HATE to admit it and will most likely never admit it again in my life. Ever. The sad part about reality TV is that it's all the same. They all act like the show is real and not scripted. So I don't know why I spend so much of my like watching shows that do nothing for my life. It's all trash if you really sit and think about it. These shows make me no more of a person. I guess they don't really make less of a person either though.

hmm.

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A new Hills is starting tonight though! Have to watch it.. ( as I role my eyes!)

Sundays!

I'm hanging out with my family right now, eating chips and home made salsa, and watching football. Well I'm not watching football, because I have no idea how football works. I really should figure out how it works and the rules. My family LOVES football, and I just don't understand it! Maybe I don't want to understand it, because I don't care! YES!

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But I love my family, and today is going to be a great day! With a little history studying, today is going to be a great day!

I do miss my baby though!

Relay For Life

Firday night was amazing! I didn't make it all night but until 3. Not to bad right! Our team made over 4,000 dollars! I was VERY proud to be there the other night, and I know Deena was looking down on us with her precious smile!

I was the Hair lady all night! We had a fundraiser that you paid 1 dollar, and you got to get your hair sprayed! My hand was hurting SO bad by the end of the night... BUT we riased like 100 dollars that night just from spraying peoples hair!

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It was a great night, and it was an honor to be there last night!!!

Relay For Life!

Today has been a really good day! Nothing to exciting, just went to work. BUT tonight is Relay For Life, and it's a out night deal! It is a HUGE fundraiser to raise money for cancer research. I feel like a really good person, I raised 200 dollars! WOOOOP! Go Breanne Right!

I'm really excited for tonight, but tomorrow is going to be a LONG day ha! I have school in the morning and then I am babysitting tomorrow night.

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Well have a good weekend!

Speech ...

I'm sitting here trying to write a speech for my speech class, and it is not working out so well. I have a friend over right now, and she is VERY distracting ... I really have to get this done because I'm giving my speech tomorrow! I have it written down, I just have to put it in to a outline, and then practice it! PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE!

Right.

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Wish me luck!

NO Simple Sentences

I don't understand why some people are so quick to criticize you and your work, but yet can't handle it them self's. But the best part about it is, that most of the time they have NO idea that they are always criticizing you. Now some people do know that they are criticizers, and do it just because that is their personality. They don't give a rats butt how other people see them, and do and say as they please. If people would just stop and think before they do, the world would be SUCH a better place. It wouldn't be perfect. But it would be a much happier place, with happier people!

The world should just asking me for my opinion and how things should be run! I get this world in tip top shape....

ha. Yeah right Breanne!

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Studying

So I realized today, that in High school I never really learned how to study. So now that I have 2 test tomorrow, I'm starting to really freak out, because I don't know how to study. I mean I tried today, and read my notes, and re read the chapter. But I still feel very unprepared for both test. I wish I knew a better method, but to say the least I am going to pray really hard tonight, and hope that my brain with work with me tomorrow!

YOU CAN DO THIS BREANNE COE!

ah.

Thank you High School for nothing!

Sonnet

No lie I'm sitting here in tears. I have tried and tired to figure out the right way to write this poem.

I have put my all into this - and at this point I have NOTHING. I thought I had most of the lines right, and then I go back and read it, and it is awful. I really want to pass this class, and do well, and at moment I feel like this poem is going to be the death of me, and this class.

I don't understand why I can't get the hang of how to write this the correct way. I mean have the rhyming words down, and the syllables, but not the stressed and unstressed. That is the part that is stressing me out. ...

arg.

I need to go pray, and stop crying.

College Station.

So I'm sitting here in College Station in my boyfriends dorm .. :]

Left me tell you - there room is a MESS. Well really just Travis' side! I'm really glad I got to come down today, and visit with my baby! We haven't really done much, but I got to meet some of his friends! They were super nice.

I can't wait to come back down here for a game! That will be SO MUCH FUN!

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and then it all went down hill ........

So how can a good day turn so sour so fast.

I was having a great day, nothing to exciting, just at work with my little babies! We only had 7 today, so it was a fun, easy day.

and then it all went down hill ........

As I was heading out the door, I got yelled at by a co-worker, who by the way gets on my complete nervous, and gets under my skin. Plus I was getting yelled at for something that had NOTHING to do with her, uh mind your own business.

On the way home I was talking to my boyfriend, who broke his collar bone last night, and is not handling everything so well. He is really grumpy right now, and he sounds really mad at me. I mean he says hes not, but in his voice I hear the madness! I mean I didn't do anything, and if anything I have been checking on him and calling, and texting TOO MUCH. Maybe that's why he is mad, I won't leave him alone. I am really sad though, because I'm always the one to help him when he is sick, and make him feel better, and I have been replaced with this girl named Allyson. She even took him to his doctors appointment today ... ah...

So with that, I was planning on going down there tomorrow after my math class, but his roommate is not wanting me to come down, and his roommate is my best friend! AH. I was really sad when he told me he didn't want me to come. I mean he didn't say he didn't want me to come - but he said that it was going to be really crowded, and I'm not missing much any way... . ah, what am I sopost to do now.

I mean really - I'm like torn. Whatever I choose some ones is not going to be happy with my decision. I mean Travis is going to get mad if I don't come down, and Keanan is going to be mad if I do come down ......

arrrg.

ah. Thanks best friend.

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Sonnets are NOT my friend..

This dang sonnet is not going so well. I thought I had re- written in the right way and on the right track. I mean I knew it was perfect or even good, but I had tried my best on the poem.

ARG.. kljsfdlskdjf;alsdjf

Today in class we did the peer editing and my whole poem is still wrong. I have the right rhythm, it is just the stresses and unstressed that is getting the best of me. I have one line out of 14 that are right. Are you kidding me. I worked so hard on something, that is wrong!

So now I will be writing this dang poem again for the third time. .

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I hope and pray I get a good grade on this. I have put my little heart into it, and don't seem to be getting very far ...

ah.

Breaking Point.

Sometimes I feel like everyone around me puts all their issues on me, and then they just walk away. I feel like everyone is always turning to me for help and dumping their life right into my lap. And yet when I need these people, and it's my turn to doing a little venting, everyone is busy. I mean of course when I call in tears, they put everything down, and time has no meaning at the moment. But it's so hard to always be at your breaking point just for some one to hear you. ..

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But, no fear I really am ok. Promise.

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Today was a really great day!

I mean I don't have any exciting stories to tell or anything of importance. It was just a good day! I made a new friend who is super nice, and we already have plans for Friday! Wooop! I had a pop quiz in Speech, and I rocked it! I went to my bike class and burned 673 calories, NOTHING to complain about there! I'm on a relay for life team, and I have raised 200 dollars for my team! Yeah for helping fight cancer! My dinner my mom made was divine! I re wrote my sonnet! ... eh - nothing else that I can think of..

ha!

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Canning ...

A group of girls and I have gotten together twice now to can some things - hot sauce, applesauce, jalapenos and pickles. It has been alot of fun and very yummy! (Did you see me pat my own back?) Today was the second day and we canned a ton of things today! Here is a pictures of all I have at my house. Anna kept the other half of the pickles and a couple jars of applesauce and a jar of hot sauce. It's really easy and fun, if you don't mind the smell of vinegar and it's lingering odor in your house =)

VMAS ...

Ok yes, I'm sorta ashamed to admit it, but I just spent my Sunday evening watching the VMAS ...

I think I say every year that I won't watch and then I do...

Taylor Swift won her first ever VMA and Kayne West came on stage and interrupted her "thank yous" by grabbing the microphone and saying that Beyonce should have won. Security should have stopped him, I'm mad at MTV too. A "regular" person would not have been able to get up there.

It's so sad because there is tons of true talent in that room...... I certainly am not a prude person but I don't understand the need to be cruel and trashy?!?

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It's just really sad what music has turned into, it's not about Talent.. Honestly I don't even have to words to explain what it is any more .. I'm afraid to see what it's like, when I start having kids. I guess every generation has said this at one point though .. huh

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( It rained all day again!... by the way!)

Rain drops.

The sound of rain is so peaceful. I could spend all day laying in my bed just listening to rain drops hit the roof of the house. I wonder what it is about rain that makes you want to stay inside all day cuddled up to a blanket and do nothing all day.

I was walking to my math class this morning and the rain drops where hitting my umbrella, and the sound was so calming. It's such a simple sound, but yet so powerful.

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Ah - I hope it rains all day, so I can spend all day inside with my Travis!

A good movie, popcorn,rain, and your honey can cure anything!

I see cuddling in my near future!

anxious ...

I'm extremely anxious at the moment!

It took me almost 3 hours to get ready for tonight! People that is WAY to long, I never even take 1 hour to get ready much less 3! Put I do look HOT to say the least! :]

Breanne why are you taking SO long to get ready for, you ask?!?

Today is our 3 year anniversary, and he is coming home from college station to hang out with me all weekend!

I really couldn't ask for anything better at this moment! I have an amazing guy by my side, and the world at my feet! My life is simple amazing; I have NOTHING to complain about....

Now off to wait at the front door for him! (I feel like I'm a little kid waiting for Christmas to get here! Ha.)

Focusing ..

I'm in a super weird mood right now. I'm not really anything. Ha. I'm just kind-of here today. I can't focus though, like at all. I have been to 2 classes today, and in both of them I just zoned out every now and then ..

I don't know - this whole week I have not been my self, and doing things I don't normally do. I'm not really sure what is up. I mean nothing in my life has changed dramatically this week. I haven't felt wonderful, but not deathly! I'm not sad or mad or angry. I'm just not focused, on anything.

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hm.

I hope I can get out of this non mood swing thing. I want to have a little emotion people! I want to be focused! :]

plus - Travis is coming home tomorrow! eek.

Flash Cards

I just spent the last 2 hours making flash cards for my psychology class! Yes, I Breanne Coe, a college student still need flash cards to help me! I'm really proud of them to say the least. :] I even went on a walk, and took them with me! How handy is that?!?

That's the great part about flash cards, I can put them in my little purse (well large purse with everything around the sun in it), and get them out at any given moment! Waiting to see the doctor, no worries I have my flash cards, bored during commercial, no worries I have flash cards!

I just want to be 100% ready for my test, and I feel at the moment my flash cards with help!

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sick .. blah

I'm really upset right now... I have been looking forward to this weekend for a while now, and wouldn't you know that I would get sick. Travis' and I 3 year anniversary is on Friday, and he is coming home for the whole weekend! I really wanted this weekend to be special, and fun, but now it's just look gloomy, and blah....

I really hope and pray that I will get better by Friday, or at least not worse! Is that too much to ask for?!

now off to take medicine, and go to bed!

Forgive :]

Psalm: 4:4
In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent.

Proverbs: 29:11
A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.

I totally love these verses! I'm certain I've never heard this first verse before or maybe I have and it never sunk in fully. But how true is it to walk away when you're angry and just be silent and listen? I've learned to do just this over the years but it's comforting to know that this is what is expected of us when we've reached the point of becoming angry. And, admittedly so, I do forget this at times but I have to remember to stop in the midst of anger and listen.

I walked away tonight with a completely different perspective on my attitude towards my enemies and even those I love who have offended me at one time or another. I need to love them or even pretend to like them. I need to forgive them and continue to do good to/for them. I need to raise my tolerance level and accept people for who they are no matter how crazy, how disrespectful, how rude and ignorant, or how down-right annoying people can be. In doing so, I will be more accepting and it would make it easier to love my enemies.

I learned tonight that I need to ALWAYS be the bigger person and this includes continuing on in life with a smile on my face when I've been hurt or belittled, to keep walking forward and not look back when wrong has been done to me and my family. I've learned (and will continue to learn) how to turn the other cheek and not let someones hurtful words and actions consume me. I know who I am and I know my intentions as does God. I need to stand out above the others and be someone different.

He did what to my shoes ....

So I wish I could pull pranks on people, and I wish I could be sneaky and sly, but I'm just loud and can't keep fun secrets! I'm one of the stupid people who buys a Christmas present really early, and then tells you I bought you something, and say I'm not going to say anything not even hints, and then by the end of the day I ended up telling you what I got! Plus when I try to do a joke on some I just end up laughing and getting myself caught or I just execute it really badly ….

So I was at my sister house today and my dang brother in law was messing with me all day! He was just picking at me, and we just going back and forth messing with each other. So when I went down to take I nap I should have known better! ….. That sneaky sneaky little fool!

I went to put my shoes on and he had laced them backwards, and triple knotted them! Ha.

I must say it gave everyone a good laugh!

Thank you Jason for always adding a little humor to everyone’s day!

Ipod...

I love how my Ipod seems to know what mood I'm in. I know it sounds really stupid, but I swear it like feels what I'm feeling. I was heading to my sister’s house today, and every single sad love song I have on my ipod came on. At first I thought it was kind of funny, but then it just got really weird and sad! Ha.I will have to pay attention more often and see if my ipod dose this all the time ... (Am I going crazy here or is does your Ipod do this too!?!?)

Family!

I absolutely love my family. We are so incredibly close. I mean don’t get me wrong we still have our ups and downs, but at the end of the day we love each other no matter what! 
 
My sister is the best! We are 10 years apart so growing up we were not close at all. I mean, I was just the annoying little sister that would always be in the way. But with each year I get older, the closer we get. I run to her for everything. I think sometimes I still get on her nervous though!
 
I have 2 nephews and a niece; ah I could go on ALL day about them! These kids are what keep me going, and have made me who I am today. They are the reason I wake up every day, and have a smile on face! I can’t wait to watch the 3 of them grow up, and live life, and for their Aunt Bee to be right there with them!
 
My family is amazing, and I don’t know how I could live without them. They are my everything, and I should really thank them more often for everything they do for me. 
 
 I love you family, and TRose! 

Thank you for sticking by my side, and loving me always! 
 
You guys ROCK!
 

 
J

Pet Peeve..

It absolutely irritates me when a student walks into class asks me if we had home work. Of course I say oh yeah we had to read or say whatever the homework was, and they just blow it off like they don’t care. DON’T ASK IF YOU DON’T CARE! Really, you are an adult and paying for this class – you should really have paid attention yesterday when the professor told us what we should be prepared for the next day. This is not High School; I’m not your babysitter. Open your ears, and pay attention. Everyone else has things going on in their life; you are not the only one in the class room who has a life outside of school!

Sometimes I wish I just didn’t care! I wish I could just look at those people who ask me and blow them off. I wish I could be rude to them and not help them out. I wish I had a back bone when it came to people I don’t know. I wish I could just be honest with them and tell them to pay attention, and don’t always depend on me each day to tell them what’s going on.

I just don’t want to be “that” girl in class that everyone runs to for help, and to copy because everyone knows that I do my work …

Breanne you are strong and can say NO! They are grown up’s and need to, well have to do it them self’s! Be strong Breanne, be strong!

Co-op, and Stew!

I'm in this produce Co-Op with about 15 other women and basically every 2 weeks you pay 20 dollars, and get lots of fruits and veggies!

This week we got sweet potatoes, limes, pineapples, grapes, corn, grape tomatoes, peaches, pluouts, broccoli, carrots, mushrooms, celery, and bell peppers. Yum-o! Each week we get a hand full of different fruits and veggies, and I have come to really love thinks I used to hate! I also love that each week I get to cook with thinks that I normally would have never bought at the store or would have never thought I would have even tried.

So this brings me to what I’m in the process of cooking for dinner! I have stew brewing in the kitchen right now and the smell is making my stomach do loops and turns. I’m hungry people! My meal is SO healthy too; I boiled the chicken, used fresh veggies, and even used wheat pasta …

Well have to go finish my dinner – or eat it I shall say!

See you tomorrow!

Critical Reading Question #1 - Pg 49

The author engages the reader by pulling them into the story as if they were going through that situation. The author is starting out with a bang and a personal story right off the bag that catches my attention. I seem to really be engaged to authors that use emotion as their opener to a short story. I love when I go to read the first paragraph and can feel their pain, sorrow, and excitement. It’s almost as if the authors/characters life is being played out right in front of you. Thats when you know you are reading a good book, when you can see the story happing in front of you! It’s my favorite!

Questions for Discussion and Writing

1. Lamott writes, “The first draft is the child’s draft, where you let it all pour out and the let it romp all over the place.”

- In what ways does this describe your first-draft writing?

This quote describes a first draft writing by saying, you know what it’s ok for your first draft to make no sense at all. It’s perfectly fine that your first draft is all over the place, and has no rhyme or reason. The quote lays it all down on the line for everyone to realize that you have a first draft for reason and to use it all to your advantage. Take that time to right every thought going on in your head, and maybe just maybe in the mess of your first draft will there be something amazing just waiting for you.

- In what ways does it differ?

Honestly, I don’t think it differs at all. I completely agree with Lamott’s quote. I believe that your first should be a huge mixture of everything, and then from there narrow your results down.

- To what would you compare your first drafts?

I would like to compare my first drafts to a child eating ice cream on a hot day! The sun is beating on the ice cream, with the ice cream melting all over the child, but the child is trying so hard eat before it all melts, and yet they enjoyed every moment of the ice cream. So even though eating the ice creaming was messy and it got all over them, the process was worth it, and they got to eat yummy ice cream! Just like writing a first draft, it will be messy at first but in the end it was worth, and you came out with a great essay! J

God's Creation

God's creation absolutely amazes me.

I love how something so simple as the sun setting can completely melt your heart.

As I was watching the sun set last night,this calmness just flowed over me. This feeling of every things going to be ok, and the big man up stairs is watching over you.. It was like God was just holding me. The moment was mine, and nobody could take it away. That small moment was enough for me to let everything go, and just be still. To let everything around me complete leave my body, and hand it over to God... It was a moment that was very needed, and I loved every single second of it! I don't know how God dose it, but his plan is perfect, and last night I was right where I needed to be. The sun set was perfect, and beautiful in every way.

Drinking.

Why do people drink? Why do people intently get drunk just to get drunk? What is the purpose of drinking when you know good and well that when you get drunk you get angry.

I grew up with my father drinking, and using that as a way to escape. So in my eyes drinking is not fun, drinking is not a game, and drinking is not something you do to just relax a little ..

Drinking is not worth it, and it always seems to bring the worst out in everyone, and yet people around the world still get drunk every single day. People still drink even when they know that they have a family at home waiting on them. People still drink when they know that they get angry and do and say things that they would never EVER do sober.

... ..

Drinking is so not worth it all. Not even a drink. You don't need to drink to have fun. You don't need to drink to relax. Find other outlet for your problems. You know..

arg.

....

just a little something to get off my chest. ...

Drinking is just SO NOT WORTH IT.

It's not worth your family, or a life. ....

It's just not. Get over it people!..

-Breanne Coe

Rough Day ...

Seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait

Every moment last forever if you feel you've lost your way

What if your chances are already gone

Started believing that I could be wrong

But you give me one good reason

To fight and never walk away

- Kris Allen

I feel very alone today. My best friend, boyfriend, life, everything moved down to college station last week and left me here to suffer. Ok, well not suffer per say, but he left me here! Best friends of eight years now going strong. Travis has been by my side for everything in my life. He has seen the best of times and worst of times. I love him more than anything, and I can't imagine in not in my life.

It's so weird to have been with some one for so long, and seeing them everyday to not seeing them at all. Of course I have talked to him on the phone, and over Skype, but it's just not the same. I miss his smile, and his touch, and his sense of humor. I could use a good laugh right now and he would be the perfect person to cheer me up!

I just want to be selfish and have him come home EVERY weekend, just so we can have our time together back! But the other side of me wants me to happy for him, and the new chapter of life he is starting.

I know we can do this, and come out with a stronger and happier relationship... in the end. I love us , and I love our relationship, and know that God has put this on us for a reason!

I just can't wait for him to be home, and back with me!

I love you Travis Rose. :]

Over thinking.

I have started and re started this blog a million times. I think I have something interesting but once I re-read it, it sounds…. well retarded! It’s like I’m trying so hard to make this perfect, that I can’t just write about something simple. Over thinking things is a fault of mine! I can never seem to just do something. I like to beat things to the ground until I feel like I have weighed out every option and have made the perfect choice! Like this blog for an example. I was told to just write, not write a book or a story, but to blog about anything! .... My little voice in side me is telling me to LET GO LET GO!

My history book is sitting right next to me, and chapter one is calling my name. Off to study I go!

:]

-Breanne Coe